As I've mentioned before, I've been taking yoga as a compliment to my Crossfit classes. This is important to me because 1) I suck at stretching, 2) I definitely need the relaxation and 3) it gives me a guarenteed "date" night with one of my best friends once a week. One think that is hard about yoga is that you can't gague your progress the way you can with Crossfit. Whereas you might be able to reach further during a stretch, or hold something longer, it isn't something that you write down or that anyone else is paying attention to, so at the end of the hour, its all about how you feel. I have to let go of comparing myself to the other girls in the class. The bodies in the room are flawless, and mine isn't. It can be distracting, when I catch sight of myself in the mirror and start calling myself mean names. I realize that the whole point of working out is to become stronger and happier with myself, and I'm not doing that at this point. I still feel like my body is my enemy, and it is frustrating.
Today, however, I am going to celebrate that I was able to get together breakfast, lunch, and 2 snacks (all Zoned) for work. I did, though, forget my gym bag at home. When I got to work, I realized that I left my work keys on my desk, thus locking myself out. I had to call a co-worker to come rescue me, because I get to work first. I also had to reschedule Crossfit for tomorrow, because it is not really feasible to drive all the way home to get my clothes to get back to the box to do a WOD on a work night. But a friend who has keys to my house is going to bring my workout clothes to yoga, which is where she is going, so I can at least do yoga tonight. Serenity now. I'm really trying to get my act together. It's just hard when I am the biggest space case! Today I will focus on the positive things I am doing for myself and let go of the chaos that is swirling around me.
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